I know you won’t but I would like it if you could stay this adorable forever.
Hello there Mr. Bubba,
I haven’t written you nearly enough. Mainly because you and I haven’t seen eye to eye with each other since the day you moved in. You’re a mommas boy through and though. That’s okay though you get it from your dad. Much to my surprise those awful glares and screams have slowly turned to awkward smiles and laughs. It took us a few months but we’re finally growing on each other. I honestly can’t wait until I can buy toys again….I mean buy toys for you. Keep up the good work with all the baby stuff. I know you will probably think I’m lame too, but you’ll probably inherit all my nerdiness so I guess you can’t say much. I love you son and don’t you ever forget it.
Your dear old dad is having one of those days. Nothing seems to be going right. Days like today I wish you could talk already so we could just go for a walk and talk it out. Shoot most of the time I wish you could talk already because I’m excited for all the strange and funny conversations we are going to have.
I’m not writing oh to complain about all the negative things, but because writing you seems like my only moments of clarity. Even as more sentences go by I feel myself becoming more positive and in a better mood. That’s for that. Helping me out when don’t even realize it.
I hope you’re having a great day when you read this. I supposed to be leaving you all kinds of life wisdom for you to look back on and use so remember, compare every single boy you ever meet to your daddy. Nobody will love you like he does. I know you’ll think I’m lame but thanks for always being there for me.
How you treat your daughter (and your daughter’s mother) will set the tone for many other relationships in her life.
Hey Sweet Pea,
I think it’s safe today that you’re a walking machine. Now you aren’t getting in your recommended 10,000 steps a day, but you took a few steps to walk away from me. No I didn’t cry, (While your mom was around) but it’s crazy how as a parent the smallest things can make you the proudest person on the planet. Those few steps also made me the most terrified man on the planet. One day you’ll only want to walk away from me because you be too cool. I know I have a few years to prep for it, but it’s still sad to think about. Now that I have my mobile parrot who can follow me around the house, there is no limit to the amount of mischief we can get in to. I hope mom and bubba are ready. Now I know by the time you read these you’ll think I’m super lame, but you’re the best part of everyday and I love you.
Instead of buying your kids all the things you never had teach them all the things you were never taught. Material wears out, but knowledge stays.
Well today is the last day of camp and we’ll all be heading home soon. This week we’ve been at a camp for special needs children put on by the Texas Department of Assistive and Rehabilitative Services. Experience E.X.C.E.L.S (Expanded Core Education in Living Skills) is a camp for young blind and visually impaired children and their families as well as children of any age and their families who have multiple disabilities one of which is blindness/visual impairment.
I can’t help but sit here and think about my week, and the weeks to come. This has been such a moving experience for me and my little family. We’ve had our ups and downs when learning about our daughters visual impairment, and this week stirred up all kinds of emotions. No I don’t mean we were sad the entire trip, but telling our story again after not talking about it for a while definitely made me drift off for a moment or two. Then I look and play with her, and like always all my worries wash away.
The main impact this week wasn’t even from my family, but from watching and interacting with some of the other families. Seeing the strength, love, and support from the families around me brought joy to my heart and inspired me like never before. I practically sat in admiration the entire week. Some families with situations far more unique than Elliot’s were some of the most optimistic people we have ever met. I’ve been motivated to stay positive and dive head first into this community of support to learn as much as I can. In turn teaching Elliot as much as I can.
We’ve had a truly blessed week. We can’t thank the families and staff for all the support and love we’ve gotten. As well as her ladies back home that come out every week to help our daughter hit her milestones. We also can’t begin to thank our families and friends back home for being there from square one. You all are a gift from above and we could not do it without you.
As I sit here laying next to you, bubba, and mom I can’t help but stare and smile. This is the most beautiful view and I wouldn’t dare waking any of you. Some times you just have to live in the moment, and right now I’m in heaven. No not because you aren’t smacking me around and Fitz isn’t screaming for mom, but because I can lay here and fully adore my family without a single interruption. You’re quite the amazing little girl. Every week you do something that blows me away. I’m sure you’ll think I’m easily impressed but I can’t help but be taken away by the little fears you accomplish. Keep up the good work and I’ll keep on the proudest dad of an almost two year old on the entire planet. I know you think I’m lame but I love you dearly.